The doubt is just getting worse. I feel constantly nauseous now, and I feel horrible when I channel because I feel it is just bullshit.
The doubt is coming on strong because you need to deal with it. This is the step that is right in front of you, the task that you must act on, the next belief to be cleared in order for you to move ahead. You cannot continue and expand your abilities and your purpose until you have dealt with this doubt. The longer you allow it to linger, the worse it will feel. The Universe does not give up. The signs and the messages will not stop coming until you have cleared this roadblock. You must deal with this, and you must do it now, or the pain will intensify. The longer you postpone dealing with this, the more resistance you will have to deal with when you do finally choose to change your belief.
And that is what it is: a choice. Make no mistake, you are completely in charge of your beliefs and your actions. This is your belief by choice, and you can choose to believe something helpful instead. You are no victim and you are clinging to this doubt because you think it keeps you safe. If you keep doubting yourself you believe you will never have to move ahead and face other scary situations. You believe if you just keep doubting yourself you can just stay hidden and small, and that will be the end of all pain. But you are wrong. There is no worse pain than denying your purpose. Their is no pain like that of a creature of love and power, trying to squeeze herself into a tiny box of limitations, just so she can stay small and apparently safe. Small is not safe, hidden is not security.
When you step into the power that is yours, the giant that you all are, that is when you find security. When the human becomes the God, that is when you know you are safe. Staying small and hidden is the illusion of safety, it is not the security of being the one mighty power that creates continents and galaxies and Universes. Being small is choking away the life force and creativity that is your innate power. Being small is painful and the longer you doubt yourself the more intense the pain will be. It is this way so you can change that belief, to uncover more of the truth of who you are.
You will never feel safe and secure within who you are until you decide to let go of the illusion. You can know about the illusion and react to the illusion, but still be aware that it is an illusion. You don’t have to fix it all at once, but you do need to decide to attack this doubt. You cannot keep giving in to the false longing for staying small. You cannot hide from your purpose.
To let go of self doubt is a choice. don’t make it any more complicated than that. It is a choice. In this moment you are choosing the illusion of doubting your self. You have a choice to change that. You cannot go back. Until you choose to change, to accept that you are not wrong, that you are not doing anything wrong, and that you are not bad, you will feel like you are wrong, doing wrong, and are bad. That is a choice. No one else can make that choice for you. You are at a point where you must change how you see yourself and you must make that change now. There is no other solution, no way around it.
But you must make that change within you. No one else can do it for you. You must choose you.